What what

I almost got a job. ALMOST. I'm like. This close : ||

SO CLOSE. We'll find out friday the verdict.


SOOOOO CLOOOOSE.

Also, I got the first page done of my comic with Christopher and Cleo c: .

It is called : Meretricium

x3



I've been feeling a little out of sorts lately. But I think I'm getting better this time. For real. However, I feel there is a little part of me that may be changed forever. Hopefully for the best.

Space Marine

I drew one!



When Christopher was little, he always wanted to be a space marine.

Live that dream Chris. Live it!

....I have a blistering headache. I should go read or something. Be productive in other ways.

Also drew this thing because Claire wanted me to.


It's a toaster stealing monster. Greedy children turn into these and if they don't stop being greedy they change fully into this weird animal , never able to change back into a human ever again.

Lovely

I got this email the other day. Completely out of the blue, totally unexpected. To be honest I thought it was just a weird spam that creeped into my pot of other less annoying spam. But it wasn't. It was actually a pleasant letter, expressing things about my work I never knew people felt when they saw it.



I really didn't know what to say at first,actually. I read it out loud to Tom, with this dumb ass grin on my face the whole time. It was perfect timing, because I was just thinking the day before about how shit my work was getting again, and I wouldn't have finished the picture. I was just about to quit it, but then I decided I'd finish it because it was an awesome day that filled me with hope. It made me realize that even though people arn't saying it to your face all the time, you still leave this impression, or imprint even, on everyone. They don't always have to say it, but it's not about the feedback. It's about the effect.

I finished this for you, Laela.

You can see it better here.

Beil

Got our new printer/scanner in today.

THIS SHIT IS THE PIMP.

Look at dem shades. I'm usually very very gentle with my pencil work, so half the time it never shows up how it actually is. But no need to fear.

Been on a role lately. Gotta fix up my resume, look for more jobs, and read the books I'm reading. A few others came in today that I was totally hyped about.



For my soon to be awesome film making career that will be awesome.



And for my first movie. So much reading to do, but real fun. Still reading quantum physics and the bible and all. I'll probably try and finish those before I start on The Republic, being thats another lengthy book. And the Reel Truth is even lengthier. But I look smart with a book in my face so it's coo.

I also drew some old guy, but hes not that coo, so he can stay hidden in mine sketch book....gotta work on that resume.

This Fancy Man

After making this, I totally remembered about Jamiroquai. That's one awesome cat.

Tom just got me a copy of Plato's Republic yesterday, so that I can continue the story of The Elephant King. I'm totally hyped for this story. I love animals and all, so it'll be fun picking the ones I want. There's totally going to be a tiger man in a suit. I promise.

I also been working on my Jesus story still, and reading Marcus Chown's "Quantum Theory Cannot Hurt You"



An Extremely good read. One should definately pick it up if they want to know how weird the world totally is and how uncool we are compared to it. It's definately helping me out with my own story, just as I hoped. I just wish I could get such a better grasp of everything that encompases the whole subject, but that's much much more reading for another day. You can really get lost in the boundless amounts of information and theories surrounding the universe. MIND BOGGLING I SAY!

The Elephant King

Synopsis: Woman runs into strange world where a kingdom lives in the working form of The Republic. She changes things.

Thats not what I had in mind when I was just sketching these ladies at first. Just something I though about in the shower. Tom and I went over the story briefly, and decided this will be our first film.

I drew a few other things like, this lady. We went to watch Sherlock Holmes in the cinima. I love going to the movies. It's so... focused. There's definately a vibe the cinima can call it's own.



I also drew some old guy. 10 mins on him. Think i need to work more on making people look older. I should also do more drawings from reference. Good practice I say!



One day a good scanner will be in my home.

Yahweh

I wish I had a nice camera that could take nice pictures, cause then this would look nice too. On the real , I wish I got the tones this dark on the real pencil drawing. Maybe next time I won't be so afraid.

Jesus again, with the face as close as I can get it. Not bad for 4 in the morning! Still want to make him look slightly older/more tired. It'll be right eventually.

My mind is like...it's hard for me to explain. It usually is anyway. Racing around. I think too fast for my own good. I always feel like there is something I'm meant to do, that I absolutely have to do, but in the end all the efforts that I push harder and harder out of myself turn out to be distrations from whats really getting at me.

I wish I spent more time -with- my family rather than yelling at them when I had the chance. I never had any regret before in life, not any true ones that amount to anything, so it's hard to swallow down. Especially the fact being I let pride and arrogance lead my mouth through most of the trash that spewed from it. I wanted to help, I just ended up being a nuisance. I'm so worried about everyone else; if they're doing it the right way, or have thier head in the right direction. Complaining about the speck of saw dust in their eyes, when I have a whole plank in my own. Meh.

I think I can relate to my own idea of Yeshua when I feel something great within me, but really I'm just being dirty and getting by on clumsiness.

That's not to say that the fight is over though. I know I'm getting better, I just have to accept the fact that I will never be -the- best.